There have been lots of ups and downs this June. But I shall only focus on the good things =)
I got a lot closer to my younger brother during June. It's his school holidays and since everybody else is working, I get to spend quite a lot of time with him alone. So we watched movie, tv, get scared of a bug, cook meals together hahaha
I got 2 more students so my income for uni is a bit more secured. I have 7 students now... it's a lot of responsibility. Hope I can juggle tutoring along with university studies.
I hope my shoulder gets better. If not, this may be my last year dancing :/ ok ok happy things only hahhaha uhm... I met up with Nandhi yesterday for lunch. We shall go watch movies and attend the Harry Potter exhibition in the coming weeks yay :)
Can't wait for uni to start. August 20th!!!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Last week's happenings :)
Been a really fun and rather busy week. Mostly fun haha! On monday I went to watch RJ Badminton semis at Tampines Sports Hall. The guys played against ACJC and the girls played against ACJC as well I think. Damn exciting to watch! The competitiveness and the determination in all the players' face is inspiring. And can tell that RJBT team spirit is super strong this year. They cheer each other on like crazy. Saw Boonxin play. Haha her playing style is like Boon Yi's. Then saw Cheng Yuen play his singles match. I only managed to catch Kern Hong's first doubles set before I had to leave :(
Then I had tuition, so had to travel back to Admiralty.
Then had to go to dance studio to help the juniors and Steffi and Khye with the flash mob practice. So traveled to Geylang. Wah seriously traveled the entire Singapore on Monday. Then otw back home, that was when I first thought of what to give Cheng Yuen for his birthday present :D
On Tuesday... i slacked haha!
Then Wednesday, I went to watch their finals at Toa Payoh. Almost all the attention was on the boy's team cos they really really wanted to win champions this year as they fight against arch rival ACSI. It was super stress to watch from the spectator stand! Haha I really felt excited and anxious and nervous and so amazed watching them play. Their determination is really wah!!!! I really felt for them and wanted them to do well. I don't know how I managed to look sian, according to Cheng Yuen. First singles was really super close but the RJ player in the end won! Unfortunately lost 2nd doubles but I think they were expecting it. Cheng Yuen played against Alton for second singles. Haha got pretty interesting commentary from the RJ kids around me when they played. Guess Cheng Yuen has a lot of fans ^^ cheated my feelings only, he keeps telling me nobody likes him la he doesn't know how to make friends la what nonsense! He was like a superstar lolll... Anw I knew he had to win the match cos it was crucial as a turning point, like which school will take one step closer to the title cos the score then was 1-1. Second doubles match was super exciting!!! Julian and Kern Hong played. Wasn't expecting Julian to play cos he was injured, he didn't play for semis. But I can see why Boonyi said together they are super strong. Wah they are like an atomic bomb when they play together. Super fast and strong and quite intimidating also. They dive for the shuttle cock and always encourage each other on court. Super strong duo. And the match was very dramatic also! Like how Julian missed hitting the shuttle cock but it went out anyway. Kept having heart attack watching the game haha!
Finally when Kern Hong and Julian won in the rubber match, the feeling was exhilarating. I really felt super happy for the team. And if I felt super happy, then the players themselves must be really ecstatic beyond words. The boys team ran to the court celebrating, hugging. It was a really great moment. As a Rafflesian and friends of some of the players, I really felt proud and super happy for them. congrats RJBT'12!
After the match, I ate fried kway teow! hahahaha super nice!! then went back to school to help the juniors practice a bit for the flash mob. Mainly worked on cleaning my choreo, helping them to transit from the audience to the dance area as well as their freestyles. Then went to drink green apple green tea bubbletea!!! super nice! haven't drink in so long hahaha.
On Thursday I had to chiong Cheng Yuen's present. My brother took the laptop to work so I had to make sure I prepared everything so that on Friday morning I can just paste the pictures that I could print out when my brother brought back home the computer. Then I had to go Geylang again to the dance studio to help the juniors and Steffi and Khye with the flashmob. Then at night had quite a heart to heart talk with Jie Xiong. I told him my secret haha and it was quite emotional reliving it again when I thought I wouldn't have to. Cos I made a decision and now I'm just going through with it. But to recall again what led me to the decision is quite emotional. It strengthens my resolution though but it is still quite painful and bittersweet.
On Friday morning chiong Cheng Yuen's present. Have to thank the aunty at the printing shop for helping me print the pictures. Which reminds me I forgot to collet mum's photos from the aunty haha! Shall go collect it later :) Then met him for lunch at Ang Mo Kio. Didn't spend a long time together but it was still fun. Kena suanned also -_- nevermind it's his birthday haha
On Saturday, I went for ITM outing. Super fun and tiring. Ran around the entire Sentosa playing fun games :) Thanks UTG for organizing the outing ^^ And my group Sexy Six won second yay!! Made a few friends and got to know some of the people I already know a bit better :) wah still aching till today siaoo.... I missed the HC dance night concert :( but ITM outing was super worth it haha. Heard from Cheng Yuen that it was quite good but RSD hip hop is still better hehehehe XD Good job Ye Oon for getting Cheng Yuen the ticket as birthday present. Lucky I suggested it, and reminded him that it was OCY's birthday lol Ye Oon still super blurrrrrrr....
On Sunday... slack!! haha
Now it is Monday. Hope there will be more fun things to do. For now, I'm hungry and shall go eat!
Been a really fun and rather busy week. Mostly fun haha! On monday I went to watch RJ Badminton semis at Tampines Sports Hall. The guys played against ACJC and the girls played against ACJC as well I think. Damn exciting to watch! The competitiveness and the determination in all the players' face is inspiring. And can tell that RJBT team spirit is super strong this year. They cheer each other on like crazy. Saw Boonxin play. Haha her playing style is like Boon Yi's. Then saw Cheng Yuen play his singles match. I only managed to catch Kern Hong's first doubles set before I had to leave :(
Then I had tuition, so had to travel back to Admiralty.
Then had to go to dance studio to help the juniors and Steffi and Khye with the flash mob practice. So traveled to Geylang. Wah seriously traveled the entire Singapore on Monday. Then otw back home, that was when I first thought of what to give Cheng Yuen for his birthday present :D
On Tuesday... i slacked haha!
Then Wednesday, I went to watch their finals at Toa Payoh. Almost all the attention was on the boy's team cos they really really wanted to win champions this year as they fight against arch rival ACSI. It was super stress to watch from the spectator stand! Haha I really felt excited and anxious and nervous and so amazed watching them play. Their determination is really wah!!!! I really felt for them and wanted them to do well. I don't know how I managed to look sian, according to Cheng Yuen. First singles was really super close but the RJ player in the end won! Unfortunately lost 2nd doubles but I think they were expecting it. Cheng Yuen played against Alton for second singles. Haha got pretty interesting commentary from the RJ kids around me when they played. Guess Cheng Yuen has a lot of fans ^^ cheated my feelings only, he keeps telling me nobody likes him la he doesn't know how to make friends la what nonsense! He was like a superstar lolll... Anw I knew he had to win the match cos it was crucial as a turning point, like which school will take one step closer to the title cos the score then was 1-1. Second doubles match was super exciting!!! Julian and Kern Hong played. Wasn't expecting Julian to play cos he was injured, he didn't play for semis. But I can see why Boonyi said together they are super strong. Wah they are like an atomic bomb when they play together. Super fast and strong and quite intimidating also. They dive for the shuttle cock and always encourage each other on court. Super strong duo. And the match was very dramatic also! Like how Julian missed hitting the shuttle cock but it went out anyway. Kept having heart attack watching the game haha!
Finally when Kern Hong and Julian won in the rubber match, the feeling was exhilarating. I really felt super happy for the team. And if I felt super happy, then the players themselves must be really ecstatic beyond words. The boys team ran to the court celebrating, hugging. It was a really great moment. As a Rafflesian and friends of some of the players, I really felt proud and super happy for them. congrats RJBT'12!
After the match, I ate fried kway teow! hahahaha super nice!! then went back to school to help the juniors practice a bit for the flash mob. Mainly worked on cleaning my choreo, helping them to transit from the audience to the dance area as well as their freestyles. Then went to drink green apple green tea bubbletea!!! super nice! haven't drink in so long hahaha.
On Thursday I had to chiong Cheng Yuen's present. My brother took the laptop to work so I had to make sure I prepared everything so that on Friday morning I can just paste the pictures that I could print out when my brother brought back home the computer. Then I had to go Geylang again to the dance studio to help the juniors and Steffi and Khye with the flashmob. Then at night had quite a heart to heart talk with Jie Xiong. I told him my secret haha and it was quite emotional reliving it again when I thought I wouldn't have to. Cos I made a decision and now I'm just going through with it. But to recall again what led me to the decision is quite emotional. It strengthens my resolution though but it is still quite painful and bittersweet.
On Friday morning chiong Cheng Yuen's present. Have to thank the aunty at the printing shop for helping me print the pictures. Which reminds me I forgot to collet mum's photos from the aunty haha! Shall go collect it later :) Then met him for lunch at Ang Mo Kio. Didn't spend a long time together but it was still fun. Kena suanned also -_- nevermind it's his birthday haha
On Saturday, I went for ITM outing. Super fun and tiring. Ran around the entire Sentosa playing fun games :) Thanks UTG for organizing the outing ^^ And my group Sexy Six won second yay!! Made a few friends and got to know some of the people I already know a bit better :) wah still aching till today siaoo.... I missed the HC dance night concert :( but ITM outing was super worth it haha. Heard from Cheng Yuen that it was quite good but RSD hip hop is still better hehehehe XD Good job Ye Oon for getting Cheng Yuen the ticket as birthday present. Lucky I suggested it, and reminded him that it was OCY's birthday lol Ye Oon still super blurrrrrrr....
On Sunday... slack!! haha
Now it is Monday. Hope there will be more fun things to do. For now, I'm hungry and shall go eat!
Friday, May 11, 2012
From March till now...
Results
Release of A level results went well. RJ topped the nation again, no surprise there. I didn't get all the grades that I aimed for but I'm still proud of myself. My parents are proud of me too :) I applied for NUS business administration and SMU business management. But I will most likely go for SMU. College fees is an issue but hopefully, I'll get a scholarship. If not I can always take a loan. There's the issue of who will be my guarantor. Nonetheless I'm not letting my parents pay for my college fees. So hopefully I'll get a scholarship/ bursary from SMU. Currently my savings is sufficient for a year of college. I will need to tutor part time to support myself.. sighs money money money...
IRAS
I worked in IRAS for 2 months. It was an enriching experience. I learned about taxes, about how important it is for our country and its uses. More importantly I learned how to help people, solved problems and I will always remember the unpleasant moments of dealing with angry taxpayers. And despite their complains and sometimes their verbal abuses, professionalism always help to deal with my anxiety, exasperation and momentarily make me forget about my hurt feelings. It's all about getting the job done. The pay I got from IRAS is rather low though. Especially since it gets cut for CPF. I'm thinking about getting another job till uni but it will be difficult to apply for one now. Part of me wants to slack, but I need to save up for college :(
RSD AnyBody Can Dance
Couldn't be more proud of Raffles Street Dance :) The journey's been tough for them but I'm glad the juniors made it through and managed to put up 2 awesome shows. The rest of the school got inspired by the juniors' performance and it feels really good that RSD managed to make another huge leap of achievement. The bar has been set even higher for the new batch of J1s. But I'm sure they can pull it through, create another success story, another history in RJ again. Hopefully the pressure is a form of motivation instead of an obstacle for them because they have so much potential.
I'm really thankful too that the juniors invited the alumni to be part of the concert. It was a great experience for me learning from the seniors. It was really humbling because I got to learn from the awesome seniors, and yet we were all dancing together for our lovely juniors, hoping to inspire them as much as they've inspired us. Also I'm thankful to have gotten to know Yiks and Bryan better :) such retarded jokers hahaha
And I was also given the opportunity to choreograph for the juniors! The 'I Got U' item received a lot of praises and love from the audience :))))) awesome job and thank you so much Fu Kang and Lingyi for dancing my item and making it shine onstage <3 couldn't have danced it better myself haha! And the 'Feel so close' item turned out well. I was so scared that it would be a flop but it was ok. Could've been better, I could've handled it better especially with regards to the entire flow, the formations, and even the steps ok basically everything... It was nerve wrecking managing 40 dancers and I couldn't have done it without Yiks and Steffi's comments and guidance thank you so much! The fact that Juliet's sisters said 'Feel So Close' was the best item in the dancical was unbelievable. I was just hoping that it wouldn't flop, being the finale item it carried so much weight. But the results were better than that and I felt so relieved that the audience managed to take home the message from that item and from the entire dancical. If that item went down, it will practically destroy the concert's purpose. So I'm so thankful it went well! I will really have to thank the juniors for making the item work and for bearing with my nonsense throughout the practices haha and for trying so hard together :')
I already miss dancing and working with everyone although the concert was only last friday and saturday!
And I miss hanging out with Boon Yi, Ye Oon and Cheng Yuen. I miss Ye Oon. But it is a sacrifice I have to make, and seeing him happy makes up for it.
Hope to hang out with Yiks and Bryan again! Watched Avengers with them last Monday night. Bloody good show by the way. Then went to eat at Mc Donald's and shared a cab home with Yiks. Had meaningful talks with them too :) Meanwhile I shall try not to get fat now that there are no more practices for the concert haha
Release of A level results went well. RJ topped the nation again, no surprise there. I didn't get all the grades that I aimed for but I'm still proud of myself. My parents are proud of me too :) I applied for NUS business administration and SMU business management. But I will most likely go for SMU. College fees is an issue but hopefully, I'll get a scholarship. If not I can always take a loan. There's the issue of who will be my guarantor. Nonetheless I'm not letting my parents pay for my college fees. So hopefully I'll get a scholarship/ bursary from SMU. Currently my savings is sufficient for a year of college. I will need to tutor part time to support myself.. sighs money money money...
IRAS
I worked in IRAS for 2 months. It was an enriching experience. I learned about taxes, about how important it is for our country and its uses. More importantly I learned how to help people, solved problems and I will always remember the unpleasant moments of dealing with angry taxpayers. And despite their complains and sometimes their verbal abuses, professionalism always help to deal with my anxiety, exasperation and momentarily make me forget about my hurt feelings. It's all about getting the job done. The pay I got from IRAS is rather low though. Especially since it gets cut for CPF. I'm thinking about getting another job till uni but it will be difficult to apply for one now. Part of me wants to slack, but I need to save up for college :(
RSD AnyBody Can Dance
Couldn't be more proud of Raffles Street Dance :) The journey's been tough for them but I'm glad the juniors made it through and managed to put up 2 awesome shows. The rest of the school got inspired by the juniors' performance and it feels really good that RSD managed to make another huge leap of achievement. The bar has been set even higher for the new batch of J1s. But I'm sure they can pull it through, create another success story, another history in RJ again. Hopefully the pressure is a form of motivation instead of an obstacle for them because they have so much potential.
I'm really thankful too that the juniors invited the alumni to be part of the concert. It was a great experience for me learning from the seniors. It was really humbling because I got to learn from the awesome seniors, and yet we were all dancing together for our lovely juniors, hoping to inspire them as much as they've inspired us. Also I'm thankful to have gotten to know Yiks and Bryan better :) such retarded jokers hahaha
And I was also given the opportunity to choreograph for the juniors! The 'I Got U' item received a lot of praises and love from the audience :))))) awesome job and thank you so much Fu Kang and Lingyi for dancing my item and making it shine onstage <3 couldn't have danced it better myself haha! And the 'Feel so close' item turned out well. I was so scared that it would be a flop but it was ok. Could've been better, I could've handled it better especially with regards to the entire flow, the formations, and even the steps ok basically everything... It was nerve wrecking managing 40 dancers and I couldn't have done it without Yiks and Steffi's comments and guidance thank you so much! The fact that Juliet's sisters said 'Feel So Close' was the best item in the dancical was unbelievable. I was just hoping that it wouldn't flop, being the finale item it carried so much weight. But the results were better than that and I felt so relieved that the audience managed to take home the message from that item and from the entire dancical. If that item went down, it will practically destroy the concert's purpose. So I'm so thankful it went well! I will really have to thank the juniors for making the item work and for bearing with my nonsense throughout the practices haha and for trying so hard together :')
I already miss dancing and working with everyone although the concert was only last friday and saturday!
And I miss hanging out with Boon Yi, Ye Oon and Cheng Yuen. I miss Ye Oon. But it is a sacrifice I have to make, and seeing him happy makes up for it.
Hope to hang out with Yiks and Bryan again! Watched Avengers with them last Monday night. Bloody good show by the way. Then went to eat at Mc Donald's and shared a cab home with Yiks. Had meaningful talks with them too :) Meanwhile I shall try not to get fat now that there are no more practices for the concert haha
Sunday, February 26, 2012
j2 memories
While I still remember, I shall attempt to recall some of the significant moments of J2 life...
Studies
June holidays were spent as such: 1 week of studying for CT2s and 3 weeks rehearsing for TSD A levels that were held in July.
The experience was fun but extremely tiring.
Monologue: It is mentally tiring and emotionally tiring. Brecht's pieces may seem disjointed all the way but they are actually linked. And the different ideas are linked so well together, or more like one idea triggers the next which triggers the next and so on, that actually the monologue is one fluid piece. But performing it is really consuming because I have to remember the flow of ideas, how one thought leads to another. So I always have to think. And then the emotions and actions will naturally follow once I am able to to inhibit each and every thought, and feel the flow of the psychological motives triggering emotional reactions thereby leading me to act in a certain way. All the while, I had to recall that I am a bourgeois german jewish housewife who loves her german scientist husband who may or may not be the future cause of my death. My presence jeopardizes his own safety, and mine own, yet it is difficult for me to leave him as I love him. Rehearsals are extremely tiring; I end up crying 5 times within 0.5 hour of consultation with Mr Lyon... By the time I got to A levels, I was really really sian of my monologue. But apparently the tiredness add another edge to my performance. Gave it a bit more of realism because my character is tired of not being certain of anything anymore. Had good feedback from the examiner and Mr Lyon after my practical examination.
Duologue:
Practicing with Michael makes me work thrice as hard because he is such a naturally talented actor and I didn't want to bring him down, neither did I want to pale in comparison since we are doing the duologue together. It is rather tiring but at least Michael is there and we get to cry, and be angry and shout and laugh together during rehearsals. Apparently our duologue is really good. There is an unexpected moment of comedy which is damn funny (I still don't get why but hey it's a good thing) followed by a moment of seriousness and sadness. So the audience is like HAHAHAHA!!!! ... Oh shit!I shouldn't have laughed... I think duologue was my best performance out of the 3.
Group:
It is amazing how we improve all the way till A levels. Even 1 week before A levels, we were still working hard, improving on the script, our acting, our interaction between characters. I'm really proud of Greener. We did a lot of things ourselves. If grades had anything to do with the process, we would have gotten A just for it. We learned so much. And I really hope that it is not the one to pull me down. Like dancework team and pw team, we put our heart and soul into the entire process and we loved and enjoyed almost every minute of it but the results fall way below our expectations and hopes. I really wish that it wouldn't be the case for TSD because I have put in so much effort. We have put in so much effort. To get anything lower than B will just be a disappointment. But whatever the results will be (A level result coming out this friday) I know that nobody can take away the experience that we've had and that we will still be proud of ourselves whatever the results may be.
CT2s... haha didn't do it justice because of all the effort put into TSD A levels.
After that, it was seriously a bliss to just study and focus on studies. Without any distractions, any other commitments, focusing and working hard to do well for A levels gives a strong personal satisfaction. And it also had a lot to do with the fact that I love the subjects that I was studying. Getting back improved results for all my hard work with every assignment that I did was really an enjoyment for me.
Now and then, Mike Ye Oon and I would visit Street Dance. It was such a joy to see them grow :)))
Come A levels, I really did the best I could. And sometimes when I reflected upon the process leading towards A levels, I think that I could've studied more. I could've been less distracted. I could've studied longer. But given all circumstances. that I could only really start studying from August onwards cos of TSD A's, I tried my best. I just hope that I get good results to go to university and to the course of my choice. I just hope that I won't get disappointed.
Friends
Along the way, I really bonded well with a few friends. We helped each other during A levels studying period. Mike Mansi Ben Mah Vanessa Boonyi Ye Oon Shien Rei-en Nandhita Clement. We shared notes, we helped each other emotionally and mentally. Glad to have such amazing friends :)
Boon Yi, Ye Oon, Cheng Yuen
Amazingly I got 3 new extremely close friends. I've already known Ye Oon from street. But it's really nice to be able to somehow get even closer than we were already. And I really felt that I have a brother who really cares for me. Although he is quite scary when he is serious and scolding me for not eating dinner since he is the happy happy kind of person haha~
Boon Yi, although we were in TSD, we didn't get a chance to get to know each other since we were in different groups. But I'm glad we get to talk after TSD A's and somehow we clicked haha of all things we got closer initially because of Boys Over Flowers lololol... but yeah really nice to make friends with her. I learned a lot of things from her, like being more daring and grabbing at opportunities (no matter how small they are) to enjoy life everyday, and listening about her family and her siblings I get to learn a little bit about what a family is supposed to be like. Being similar in so many ways, and yet so different in so many other ways, it is always fun and exciting to hang out cos we'll talk about so many things and we always do the retardest things ever haha! And I'm glad to introduce Ye Oon and Boon Yi together!!!!!! lalalalalalalala i'm a fairy godmother!! hahahaha
Cheng Yuen, although he wasn't taking his A levels last year, he studied with us. And i got to learn a few things from him as well. He is really a committed and dedicated person, and he is really responsible. Whether he likes it or not, whether he's tired or not, whether he's busy or not, he always keep track of the things that he had to do. Although I am rather thorough and responsible most of the time, he keeps reminding me what it should be like to really be committed to something. On top of that, watching him play badminton is amazing. And it's quite refreshing to meet someone who's so clean and innocent, a really clean and white plate. Not that he's plain without his own points of view (but he's such an 'anything' person also -_-), he is inexperienced and wants to learn new things as best he can. So I'm glad also to be able to share with him a few things myself :)
My Birthday
Haha! best birthday so far!
Lunch with Boon Yi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen. And then watched badminton practice (I think court training is really cool!) And got a birthday surprise from Mansi Mike Ye Oon and Boon Yi <3 a guitar and a really nice card! and vann ben mah and anthia wrote me cards as well <333 it is amazing to know that somehow i managed to help my friends a lot and touch their lives. reading their well wishes and their thanks in my birthday cards was and is really touching. i am glad to have made a positive difference in people's lives. sometimes, i guess we don't need to do the big things. we don't need the world to know our names and recognize what we've done. at least for me, the satisfaction of having made a really good influence on the lives of ppl who really matter to me is enough.
Ye Oon's birthday
Watched "In time" with Boonyi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen at AMK hub. Ate lunch at Yilmaz :))) and then Cheng Yuen and I ran away so that BoonYi and Ye Oon can spend time together hahahaha ^^ then had dinner and bubble tea with Mansi Michael Juliet Ye Oon where we gave him his purple Dickies pants!
Prom
Haha! Performed with Ye Oon for his Dance King nomination in dedication to Boon Yi Lim! Awww <3 It was quite an amazing night. I ate a lot cos I was hungry and everybody else was taking photos and talking and walking around. Only girl I bet without make up and wearing court shoes that has barely an inch of heels ahha! But mum dressed me up in weird baggy clothes lol Then A01E went to esplanade there to lepak. then shared a cab back with Mike Ben Mah Anthia. haiz..... Ben and Anthia so sweet together... jealous much... hope to find someone for me too :)
Looking back at JC life, there were so many struggles and difficulties. There were so many things that I regretted and probably could have done better. There were so many opportunities that I let go. But as usual, when one door closes 10 others open. There were so many things I learned. I learned to enjoy life. I learned to complain with a smile on my face because life is always with struggles but it is so worth it because life is worth living with the special people supporting me as I go through this journey doing the things that I enjoy the most. I would go through all of it again to feel so well loved and to love as well in return.
Studies
June holidays were spent as such: 1 week of studying for CT2s and 3 weeks rehearsing for TSD A levels that were held in July.
The experience was fun but extremely tiring.
Monologue: It is mentally tiring and emotionally tiring. Brecht's pieces may seem disjointed all the way but they are actually linked. And the different ideas are linked so well together, or more like one idea triggers the next which triggers the next and so on, that actually the monologue is one fluid piece. But performing it is really consuming because I have to remember the flow of ideas, how one thought leads to another. So I always have to think. And then the emotions and actions will naturally follow once I am able to to inhibit each and every thought, and feel the flow of the psychological motives triggering emotional reactions thereby leading me to act in a certain way. All the while, I had to recall that I am a bourgeois german jewish housewife who loves her german scientist husband who may or may not be the future cause of my death. My presence jeopardizes his own safety, and mine own, yet it is difficult for me to leave him as I love him. Rehearsals are extremely tiring; I end up crying 5 times within 0.5 hour of consultation with Mr Lyon... By the time I got to A levels, I was really really sian of my monologue. But apparently the tiredness add another edge to my performance. Gave it a bit more of realism because my character is tired of not being certain of anything anymore. Had good feedback from the examiner and Mr Lyon after my practical examination.
Duologue:
Practicing with Michael makes me work thrice as hard because he is such a naturally talented actor and I didn't want to bring him down, neither did I want to pale in comparison since we are doing the duologue together. It is rather tiring but at least Michael is there and we get to cry, and be angry and shout and laugh together during rehearsals. Apparently our duologue is really good. There is an unexpected moment of comedy which is damn funny (I still don't get why but hey it's a good thing) followed by a moment of seriousness and sadness. So the audience is like HAHAHAHA!!!! ... Oh shit!I shouldn't have laughed... I think duologue was my best performance out of the 3.
Group:
It is amazing how we improve all the way till A levels. Even 1 week before A levels, we were still working hard, improving on the script, our acting, our interaction between characters. I'm really proud of Greener. We did a lot of things ourselves. If grades had anything to do with the process, we would have gotten A just for it. We learned so much. And I really hope that it is not the one to pull me down. Like dancework team and pw team, we put our heart and soul into the entire process and we loved and enjoyed almost every minute of it but the results fall way below our expectations and hopes. I really wish that it wouldn't be the case for TSD because I have put in so much effort. We have put in so much effort. To get anything lower than B will just be a disappointment. But whatever the results will be (A level result coming out this friday) I know that nobody can take away the experience that we've had and that we will still be proud of ourselves whatever the results may be.
CT2s... haha didn't do it justice because of all the effort put into TSD A levels.
After that, it was seriously a bliss to just study and focus on studies. Without any distractions, any other commitments, focusing and working hard to do well for A levels gives a strong personal satisfaction. And it also had a lot to do with the fact that I love the subjects that I was studying. Getting back improved results for all my hard work with every assignment that I did was really an enjoyment for me.
Now and then, Mike Ye Oon and I would visit Street Dance. It was such a joy to see them grow :)))
Come A levels, I really did the best I could. And sometimes when I reflected upon the process leading towards A levels, I think that I could've studied more. I could've been less distracted. I could've studied longer. But given all circumstances. that I could only really start studying from August onwards cos of TSD A's, I tried my best. I just hope that I get good results to go to university and to the course of my choice. I just hope that I won't get disappointed.
Friends
Along the way, I really bonded well with a few friends. We helped each other during A levels studying period. Mike Mansi Ben Mah Vanessa Boonyi Ye Oon Shien Rei-en Nandhita Clement. We shared notes, we helped each other emotionally and mentally. Glad to have such amazing friends :)
Boon Yi, Ye Oon, Cheng Yuen
Amazingly I got 3 new extremely close friends. I've already known Ye Oon from street. But it's really nice to be able to somehow get even closer than we were already. And I really felt that I have a brother who really cares for me. Although he is quite scary when he is serious and scolding me for not eating dinner since he is the happy happy kind of person haha~
Boon Yi, although we were in TSD, we didn't get a chance to get to know each other since we were in different groups. But I'm glad we get to talk after TSD A's and somehow we clicked haha of all things we got closer initially because of Boys Over Flowers lololol... but yeah really nice to make friends with her. I learned a lot of things from her, like being more daring and grabbing at opportunities (no matter how small they are) to enjoy life everyday, and listening about her family and her siblings I get to learn a little bit about what a family is supposed to be like. Being similar in so many ways, and yet so different in so many other ways, it is always fun and exciting to hang out cos we'll talk about so many things and we always do the retardest things ever haha! And I'm glad to introduce Ye Oon and Boon Yi together!!!!!! lalalalalalalala i'm a fairy godmother!! hahahaha
Cheng Yuen, although he wasn't taking his A levels last year, he studied with us. And i got to learn a few things from him as well. He is really a committed and dedicated person, and he is really responsible. Whether he likes it or not, whether he's tired or not, whether he's busy or not, he always keep track of the things that he had to do. Although I am rather thorough and responsible most of the time, he keeps reminding me what it should be like to really be committed to something. On top of that, watching him play badminton is amazing. And it's quite refreshing to meet someone who's so clean and innocent, a really clean and white plate. Not that he's plain without his own points of view (but he's such an 'anything' person also -_-), he is inexperienced and wants to learn new things as best he can. So I'm glad also to be able to share with him a few things myself :)
My Birthday
Haha! best birthday so far!
Lunch with Boon Yi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen. And then watched badminton practice (I think court training is really cool!) And got a birthday surprise from Mansi Mike Ye Oon and Boon Yi <3 a guitar and a really nice card! and vann ben mah and anthia wrote me cards as well <333 it is amazing to know that somehow i managed to help my friends a lot and touch their lives. reading their well wishes and their thanks in my birthday cards was and is really touching. i am glad to have made a positive difference in people's lives. sometimes, i guess we don't need to do the big things. we don't need the world to know our names and recognize what we've done. at least for me, the satisfaction of having made a really good influence on the lives of ppl who really matter to me is enough.
Ye Oon's birthday
Watched "In time" with Boonyi Ye Oon Cheng Yuen at AMK hub. Ate lunch at Yilmaz :))) and then Cheng Yuen and I ran away so that BoonYi and Ye Oon can spend time together hahahaha ^^ then had dinner and bubble tea with Mansi Michael Juliet Ye Oon where we gave him his purple Dickies pants!
Prom
Haha! Performed with Ye Oon for his Dance King nomination in dedication to Boon Yi Lim! Awww <3 It was quite an amazing night. I ate a lot cos I was hungry and everybody else was taking photos and talking and walking around. Only girl I bet without make up and wearing court shoes that has barely an inch of heels ahha! But mum dressed me up in weird baggy clothes lol Then A01E went to esplanade there to lepak. then shared a cab back with Mike Ben Mah Anthia. haiz..... Ben and Anthia so sweet together... jealous much... hope to find someone for me too :)
Looking back at JC life, there were so many struggles and difficulties. There were so many things that I regretted and probably could have done better. There were so many opportunities that I let go. But as usual, when one door closes 10 others open. There were so many things I learned. I learned to enjoy life. I learned to complain with a smile on my face because life is always with struggles but it is so worth it because life is worth living with the special people supporting me as I go through this journey doing the things that I enjoy the most. I would go through all of it again to feel so well loved and to love as well in return.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
street dance is the best!
im so sleepy!!!
must do lit essay gahhh
tonight was a magical night. had last training. haha steffi's present to us was a torturous training session :D hehe the last exercise about just feeling the music was awesome, now there's something for us to do anw to improve our dance skills, listen to more music :)
thanks juniors for all the effort (the notes, the individual boards, the caps and pizzas) must have really caused a bomb on your pockets :/ hope you guys will press on after this and achieve more than we ever could. but rmbr, must buck up on your discipline first!!!
batchmates are awesome... never expected street dance to feel like family ever. i like this quote that nigel lythgoe said before "nobody looks after each other more than dancers". i was never really close to my classmates, absolutely loved my redcross yearmates but we are all busy with our individual commitments and it's really disappointing that we can't meet up as often. i miss out a lot on get togethers because of street/tsd. i feel very guilty and regretful. hope street dance'11 will continue forever <3 all the ups and downs, the litres of sweat and tears that we poured onto the mini lt floor, dance studio floor, amphitheatre and black mirrors corridor will be really embedded into my memory. everytime we get so demoralized but find the spirit to try again, and the times we complained quite happily (or not so happily haha) about muscle ache at the strangest parts of our body. or saying like 'hot damn my split is lower now :D' and times when we were cleaning and the person in front says 'eh, that's actually quite synchro lehh' and then we continue cleaning again. all our little triumphs and successes along the way. running to get speakers from dat's locker last year, to shoving back the blue speakers into ye oon's locker now hahahaa shall never ever forget this whole experience :)
to steffi, thanks a lot for all the guidance, encouragement. you helped us become better dancers and in the process, molded us to be better people. you helped us live our passion, and realise our dreams/goals/aspirations. we just wanted to dance but didn't know what it was and you showed us the way. thank you for helping us realise our dreams and making jc life very much enjoyable, memorable and something to look forward to. not many people can say that. but jc life is awesome because i have street dance, and i have the nicest and warmest people around me (streeters, steffi, ms ng and ms goh, 11A01E and TSD batchmates). and to volunteer to still coach us and open doors of opportunities for us after A's that is just awesome, unexpected and really so touching. it feels really good to have you feel so concerned for us, to take care of us like that, and be our big sister when all you really needed to be was a dance instructor. thank you so much steffi :)
must do lit essay gahhh
tonight was a magical night. had last training. haha steffi's present to us was a torturous training session :D hehe the last exercise about just feeling the music was awesome, now there's something for us to do anw to improve our dance skills, listen to more music :)
thanks juniors for all the effort (the notes, the individual boards, the caps and pizzas) must have really caused a bomb on your pockets :/ hope you guys will press on after this and achieve more than we ever could. but rmbr, must buck up on your discipline first!!!
batchmates are awesome... never expected street dance to feel like family ever. i like this quote that nigel lythgoe said before "nobody looks after each other more than dancers". i was never really close to my classmates, absolutely loved my redcross yearmates but we are all busy with our individual commitments and it's really disappointing that we can't meet up as often. i miss out a lot on get togethers because of street/tsd. i feel very guilty and regretful. hope street dance'11 will continue forever <3 all the ups and downs, the litres of sweat and tears that we poured onto the mini lt floor, dance studio floor, amphitheatre and black mirrors corridor will be really embedded into my memory. everytime we get so demoralized but find the spirit to try again, and the times we complained quite happily (or not so happily haha) about muscle ache at the strangest parts of our body. or saying like 'hot damn my split is lower now :D' and times when we were cleaning and the person in front says 'eh, that's actually quite synchro lehh' and then we continue cleaning again. all our little triumphs and successes along the way. running to get speakers from dat's locker last year, to shoving back the blue speakers into ye oon's locker now hahahaa shall never ever forget this whole experience :)
to steffi, thanks a lot for all the guidance, encouragement. you helped us become better dancers and in the process, molded us to be better people. you helped us live our passion, and realise our dreams/goals/aspirations. we just wanted to dance but didn't know what it was and you showed us the way. thank you for helping us realise our dreams and making jc life very much enjoyable, memorable and something to look forward to. not many people can say that. but jc life is awesome because i have street dance, and i have the nicest and warmest people around me (streeters, steffi, ms ng and ms goh, 11A01E and TSD batchmates). and to volunteer to still coach us and open doors of opportunities for us after A's that is just awesome, unexpected and really so touching. it feels really good to have you feel so concerned for us, to take care of us like that, and be our big sister when all you really needed to be was a dance instructor. thank you so much steffi :)
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
changed blog template... nothing special, just clearer. went to gym with ben and anthia after school. felt very refreshed. not so sluggish anymore. and yes, my abs and arms hurt (i do have abs, just that they are smothered with a thick layer of fat. eww gross)
let my mum and dad see my progress report. felt really bad. still feeling really bad. shall work doubly hard now. taking cts along with tsd a level WTP!
i want to dance so bad.
crisp seaweed, korean style fried seaweed is not nice :(
having cramps in my left leg.
okay shall do work now.
let my mum and dad see my progress report. felt really bad. still feeling really bad. shall work doubly hard now. taking cts along with tsd a level WTP!
i want to dance so bad.
crisp seaweed, korean style fried seaweed is not nice :(
having cramps in my left leg.
okay shall do work now.
Friday, April 29, 2011
The best thing about not updating a blog, no one else really checks. and if i update this dead blog, no one reads, so it remains sort of private.
i've been crying almost throughout the whole day, it sucks. my head and heart are hurting. maybe it's just the lack of sleep. maybe it's pms-ing which is bs cos i just ended my time of the month a few days ago. going to school was okay. saw mansi, she gave me a hug and said that things will be fine so i cracked. then minutes later saw rei-en and shien, and they said the same thing too and again i cracked. during the second free block, shien's comp crashed and i thought we lost all our sound cues. so i went to p.e. and then i just told nan and van what happened, and i cried. again. lol, maybe i was just too drained to notice tt i was damn depressed alr. don't even know why i cried. it's like for no reason, the tears just came pouring. and i felt more drained with each passing second. nan and van said they'd cover me for p.e. so i can work on the sound cues. love them. they're so supportive, wouldn't have made it through that episode if not for them. then got back to tsd room to find that russell managed to reboot shien's comp. so i was like ohmygod!!!! the heart attack was so freaking unnecessary!! and all that's left is to put in again the changes that didn't get saved. at least i didn't have to restart the sound cue system all over again.
during gp. i have no freaking idea what that was about. i was with my head down on the table, half sleeping half crying and snot coming down my nose for that 1 and a half hours of lesson. wah that was really draining and my head just felt heavy although my chest was lighter.
augustine, azura, hemin, sarah and teri are awesome <3333333 yay we have nice tsd juniors
tech run was disastrous. russell is a nice guy except for all the awkward comments and holier-than-thou attitude that comes out every once in a while. ben and i were so exasperated that we were all just so freaking distracted. tech run and at the same time, hanging paintings, and talking about costumes!! motherf* prioritize la. tech run!!!! what the noodles. and it's just hanging up the damn painting. don't need to squabble over it. and costumes. costumes. the performance will bloody suck even if we have the world's most beautiful costumes and yet our acting suck.
rehearsal run was a lot better than actual performance abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
really appreciated everyone's comments, especially nabil, who bothered to sit down with us and gave us more notes.the next time we have a showcase,i really want to impress nabil. i wanna hear him say that he'd pay to watch out performance too :/
the difference in quality and standard of performance between happyness and tempest is staggering!! it's so demoralizing. true that they practiced more, true that they have cooler shit and gizmo. but still. our group was initially viewed as the actors group. their group had people with niche areas in costume, sets, directing and some strong actors as well. now it seems like they have everything. although it is fun that we distribute all the work all the time, and we get to experience making sets, discussing costumes and script writing. but it's been a struggle to get here, and here is basically nowhere WHAT THE SHIT.
i just couldn't stand the happy atmosphere at mos burger just now. couldn't stand it. had to leave them. feel quite bad now for leaving muni to go home by herself. on the way home, in the train, walking back to the hdb block, cried again. thank god ryan was there to talk to about random stuff yay :)
maybe i have bipolar disorder.
it seems like whatever i put my heart into, and the bulk of my efforts, results don't show up. it's just disappointment after disappointment. first of with danceworks. and then pw results. we actually are very proud of what we produced i don't give a fuck what seab thinks. they can shove up their marking sheet somewhere unpleasant i don't care. and tsd group work isn't showing up. neither my monologue nor duologue is going along fine either. and don't even talk about academics. kena shit from helen tan for not doing econs tutorial twice now. and paul poh, okay la he's nice. wah but everytime he patronizes me, just wanna punch that face till he flies to china. seriously, i don't need anymore unnecessary crap in my life.
street dance. im so relieved that it's all over for us now. it is sad, but it's been so tiring. and honestly the five of us exco members have saturated all the experience that we can ever get from being part of raffles street dance. from actualy dancing and training basics etc. to planning performances (costumes, mixing music, blocking, rehearsal schedules, budgeting) to dealing with teachers, schools, external organizations and other ccas. seriously all the exco work and extra saikang that we take upon ourselves just so the batch and the juniors don't feel the pinch of pushing our cca to greater heights just gives us so much experience, knowledge and at the same time, reduce our lifespan by quite a lot. although we've only run the cca for less than a year now BLOODY HELL! i feel like we've all aged so much. the juniors. aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i don't want to be too quick to say they are not a disappointment. but they are. or maybe we were just too excited about welcoming j1s that we set high expectations and therefore are disappointed cos they are not reaching it. i hope they find the motivation to go even higher now that everything is so nice and smooth sailing for them. hope something harsh comes and knocks them on their ass so they can wake up from their bubble of ... i don't know what. ignorant bliss la huh. the cca showcase was nothing to be proud of. and losing the $300 oh my god!!! whether it is $100 or $300, the money was representative of all the hard work the seniors put in to get through to danceworks finals. although to them, it is nothing compared to the priceless experience of preparing for the competition, we are supposed to be taking care of the fruits of their labour. and using it for our own benefit some more! it was because of that award that street dance could present something to the school for the very first time. frustration frustration frustration.
now gotta focus on studies and tsd. loll quite amused at how it's always been street, studies and tsd. like tsd is some mega shit on its own WHICH IT IS! bitch. why do you have to be so hard to manage and yet so fun, enriching and fruitful?
kay kay gotta sleep. tmr have interview.
i've been crying almost throughout the whole day, it sucks. my head and heart are hurting. maybe it's just the lack of sleep. maybe it's pms-ing which is bs cos i just ended my time of the month a few days ago. going to school was okay. saw mansi, she gave me a hug and said that things will be fine so i cracked. then minutes later saw rei-en and shien, and they said the same thing too and again i cracked. during the second free block, shien's comp crashed and i thought we lost all our sound cues. so i went to p.e. and then i just told nan and van what happened, and i cried. again. lol, maybe i was just too drained to notice tt i was damn depressed alr. don't even know why i cried. it's like for no reason, the tears just came pouring. and i felt more drained with each passing second. nan and van said they'd cover me for p.e. so i can work on the sound cues. love them. they're so supportive, wouldn't have made it through that episode if not for them. then got back to tsd room to find that russell managed to reboot shien's comp. so i was like ohmygod!!!! the heart attack was so freaking unnecessary!! and all that's left is to put in again the changes that didn't get saved. at least i didn't have to restart the sound cue system all over again.
during gp. i have no freaking idea what that was about. i was with my head down on the table, half sleeping half crying and snot coming down my nose for that 1 and a half hours of lesson. wah that was really draining and my head just felt heavy although my chest was lighter.
augustine, azura, hemin, sarah and teri are awesome <3333333 yay we have nice tsd juniors
tech run was disastrous. russell is a nice guy except for all the awkward comments and holier-than-thou attitude that comes out every once in a while. ben and i were so exasperated that we were all just so freaking distracted. tech run and at the same time, hanging paintings, and talking about costumes!! motherf* prioritize la. tech run!!!! what the noodles. and it's just hanging up the damn painting. don't need to squabble over it. and costumes. costumes. the performance will bloody suck even if we have the world's most beautiful costumes and yet our acting suck.
rehearsal run was a lot better than actual performance abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
really appreciated everyone's comments, especially nabil, who bothered to sit down with us and gave us more notes.the next time we have a showcase,i really want to impress nabil. i wanna hear him say that he'd pay to watch out performance too :/
the difference in quality and standard of performance between happyness and tempest is staggering!! it's so demoralizing. true that they practiced more, true that they have cooler shit and gizmo. but still. our group was initially viewed as the actors group. their group had people with niche areas in costume, sets, directing and some strong actors as well. now it seems like they have everything. although it is fun that we distribute all the work all the time, and we get to experience making sets, discussing costumes and script writing. but it's been a struggle to get here, and here is basically nowhere WHAT THE SHIT.
i just couldn't stand the happy atmosphere at mos burger just now. couldn't stand it. had to leave them. feel quite bad now for leaving muni to go home by herself. on the way home, in the train, walking back to the hdb block, cried again. thank god ryan was there to talk to about random stuff yay :)
maybe i have bipolar disorder.
it seems like whatever i put my heart into, and the bulk of my efforts, results don't show up. it's just disappointment after disappointment. first of with danceworks. and then pw results. we actually are very proud of what we produced i don't give a fuck what seab thinks. they can shove up their marking sheet somewhere unpleasant i don't care. and tsd group work isn't showing up. neither my monologue nor duologue is going along fine either. and don't even talk about academics. kena shit from helen tan for not doing econs tutorial twice now. and paul poh, okay la he's nice. wah but everytime he patronizes me, just wanna punch that face till he flies to china. seriously, i don't need anymore unnecessary crap in my life.
street dance. im so relieved that it's all over for us now. it is sad, but it's been so tiring. and honestly the five of us exco members have saturated all the experience that we can ever get from being part of raffles street dance. from actualy dancing and training basics etc. to planning performances (costumes, mixing music, blocking, rehearsal schedules, budgeting) to dealing with teachers, schools, external organizations and other ccas. seriously all the exco work and extra saikang that we take upon ourselves just so the batch and the juniors don't feel the pinch of pushing our cca to greater heights just gives us so much experience, knowledge and at the same time, reduce our lifespan by quite a lot. although we've only run the cca for less than a year now BLOODY HELL! i feel like we've all aged so much. the juniors. aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. i don't want to be too quick to say they are not a disappointment. but they are. or maybe we were just too excited about welcoming j1s that we set high expectations and therefore are disappointed cos they are not reaching it. i hope they find the motivation to go even higher now that everything is so nice and smooth sailing for them. hope something harsh comes and knocks them on their ass so they can wake up from their bubble of ... i don't know what. ignorant bliss la huh. the cca showcase was nothing to be proud of. and losing the $300 oh my god!!! whether it is $100 or $300, the money was representative of all the hard work the seniors put in to get through to danceworks finals. although to them, it is nothing compared to the priceless experience of preparing for the competition, we are supposed to be taking care of the fruits of their labour. and using it for our own benefit some more! it was because of that award that street dance could present something to the school for the very first time. frustration frustration frustration.
now gotta focus on studies and tsd. loll quite amused at how it's always been street, studies and tsd. like tsd is some mega shit on its own WHICH IT IS! bitch. why do you have to be so hard to manage and yet so fun, enriching and fruitful?
kay kay gotta sleep. tmr have interview.
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